Damnit, anxiety.

[avocado_love]

I've been fine over the last couple of weeks... but as my appointment with the cardiologist grows closer I'm finding myself more and more nervous. At the same time I almost welcome the fear. It seems like, in my real life, things go exactly opposite to what I planned. Things I'm dreading almost always turn out fine. I fail tests that I'm sure I passed. Stuff like that.

Maybe I just don't want to go into the cardiologist thinking I'm fine and then being knocked flat by a really bad prognoses. I'm fine. I just mowed the damn over-grown backyard with a push-mower today and it's not like I had a heart attack. I'm only 25. Surely if there was something wrong with my heart I wouldn't have to, you know, feel the effects for another few decades, right? Right?

Ugh. June 3rd is the date, and it cannot come soon enough.

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Also, on a silly, completely unreated note: If someone ever writes a slashy Sokka/Shikamaru fic I will be your bitch.

Comments

[dungeonwriter.livejournal.com]

Hugs.

I am praying for you every single night and I know you'll be fine.

Hugs and virtual chicken soup.

[tehlobster.livejournal.com]

*hug* I'm sure you're fine, but I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers!

[slightlymish.livejournal.com]

It's always best to prepare for the worst, but I'm sure that everything is going to turn out just fine! Lawn mowing is no small feat, after all!

[ashacrone.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I know the feeling. I was scared of telling people about applying for a job overseas that I didn't tell anyone for months about it for fear of jinxing it. Then I got it. So yeah, I get you.

[engelen.livejournal.com]

*hug*

[glorfindel.livejournal.com]

*hugs* take care sweety <3

[butterfly269200.livejournal.com]

:( I am so sorry honey. I wish I knew what to say to make you feel better but the only thing that I can come up with is saying that at least if something is wrong and you find out now you can start being proactive about treating it. *hugs*

I will be sending good thoughts your way.

[dwelian.livejournal.com]

I hope it goes fantastically well and all this worry turns out to be for nothing. It sucks when bad things happen.

[puppet-assassin.livejournal.com]

The anticipation of something scary is always so much worse than the thing itself. I'm sure you'll be okay. I'll be thinking of you, and I wish you luck. Just a couple of more weeks, and the anticipation will be over.